“Lord, how many are my foes! How many rise up against me! Many are saying of me, "God will not deliver him." But you, Lord, are a shield around me, my glory, the One who lifts my head high. I call out to the Lord, and He answers me from His holy mountain. I lie down to sleep and I wake again because the Lord sustains me. I will not fear though tens of thousands assail me on every side. Arise, Lord! Deliver me, my God! Strike all my enemies on the jaw; break the teeth of the wicked. From the Lord comes deliverance. May your blessing be on your people.”
Many people are familiar with the story of Esther. A woman who was chosen to be queen and saved her people from the tragic plot of the king. She stood before him boldly and pleaded for the freedom of her people. She stood confidently knowing that in all things, God is faithful. God worked through an unequipped woman to bring forth His glory in the most scandalous way. We see God in a different light through Esther. Not the God of rainbows and sunshine, but a God who calls His brave warriors to step forward in confidence. The God who is not hindered by danger and whose love is raw, reckless, and fierce.
A wild woman wrapped in the grace of God will see every struggle as an opportunity to be obedient to her King. She does not have the time to feel insecure because she is busy serving and keeping her eyes on the one who created all things. She walks forward knowing that her weakness will bring her straight to the throne of God and will illuminate His power within her. And she knows, deep down in her heart, that the God of the universe stills her, leads her, reassures her, encourages her, comforts her, calms her, convicts her, delivers her, and sustains her.
By the fierceness of God, you are becoming a woman of courage, a woman of strength, and a woman of discipline. You are obedient in the storms of life because you know the life-giver yourself. You know that His will is found in the eye of the storm and your fear has no place to live in light of who God is and how powerful He is in you. You move forward one step at a time because at any second, God could throw you off your path and onto another. But nonetheless, you do not fear the wind and waves because your footing is made firm in the hope of Jesus.
He will meet you there.
You look dead into the eyes of fear and move forward in confidence that His rod and staff will comfort you all the days of your life. He is a wall of fire around you and a canopy from the scorching heat. He will lead you by green pastures and through seasons of harvest and wilderness... yet He is faithful every second of every day of your life. This battle you are facing is forcing your heart to take courage to mold you into the warrior that He has called you to be from the beginning of time. He will take you on paths where danger lurks at every corner, yet you bravely take strides knowing that God cannot be hindered and is not afraid of the unseen.
There is a lioness within you, sister.
This is what we see in Esther. We see how God's work "behind the scenes" established a sense of strategic fierceness. The heart of Esther reveals to us the heart of God. She had grit. She was bold. She was ravishing. She was strong. She was wild. She was fierce.
We see, through her, how God established His kingdom, how He redeemed His people, and how His heart was a reflection of it all. Even in the darkest of times, when He feels the most absent, we can trust in His promise that He has never, nor ever will, abandon His people.