I will be the first to admit that I did indeed manage to completely mess up my entire class schedule for the semester that starts tomorrow, felt overwhelmed by the shut-down government and new laws made by our world leaders, and freaked out a little, actually a lot, when I realized that I only have six months to get my teaching license, an apartment, and an income.
As I sit here, in tears, next to my extremely sick boyfriend, it would be dishonest for me to say that I am not struggling to understand exactly what God is doing in this time.
Although it seems to you that I am complaining, I actually am rejoicing. I am rejoicing because God is teaching my heart to recognize fear.
I am convinced that one of these days, it will just click. I will understand why God had me wait all those years for the things I prayed for as a child. Why He kept my heart in seasons of cold weather for the longest time.
Why God gave me no other option but to trust Him.
When everybody else leaves, He stays. When the laws change and the government shuts down, He is never caught off guard. When your life seems to be falling apart and the future seems to be unclear, He gently teaches your heart to trust. He is still, after all this time, on His throne. We are not.
God has been teaching my heart to look fear straight in the eyes and confidently say that it has no hold on me. I hope that He is teaching this to you, too.
Let me say this a little louder for the people in the back... God is still on His throne! He is never thwarted, never swayed, never misguided, and never surprised, but always working and always faithful. He is paving the way for His return.
Let Him find you. Let Him lead you. Let Him teach you.
Even when life is full of sorrow and fear encompasses your heart, let Him be your peace. Let Him be your balance.
It is He who is coming for you!