It surely has been awhile. I have been MIA on my writing for the last several months and to be honest with you, I don’t think I have ever been more proud of myself.
This season of life has required me to be fully, wholeheartedly present.
My first instinct is to open my laptop and write down my life and share everything that is going on, but this season has been so incredibly different. I have had to be more disciplined than I ever have been. I forced myself to shut my laptop and take a step back. As a natural writer, it was painful at times and I found my thoughts caught in a web. It forced me to process the sudden changes in my life with my God and my loved ones around, rather than my screen. My life was flipped upside down and God ripped up all my deep roots and replanted them ten hours away. He is pruning my leaves daily and replanting. What a beautiful, treasured mess!
All in all, I wanted to give a huge shout out to all my sweet friends who have reached out to me. Y’all are so, so kind and such a precious gift to me. Your words have been like a huge hug from God. I can’t apologize for my absence, but I can say that I am so excited to be back!
So here are a few new things:
Though life recently has felt like a never-ending race, I have been learning how to slow down. I have been learning to stop, take a deep breath in, and then move forward refreshed. I am learning to create space for the simple and I am falling in love with being present. We miss so much when we are not, you know?
God has been convicting my heart to live Matthew 11:28-30 more intentionally because if anyone is the absolute worst at this, it is me!
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”
Why is this so hard for me to remember sometimes? Why was my life of constant motion robbing me of my peace, contentment, and true fulfillment?
God has extended His invitation to a spiritual decluttering to this season of life, too, I guess.
You see, God switched our plans drastically. Stephen and I were pursuing an apprenticeship at an overseas field office in the Middle East. We had it all planned out and the puzzle pieces actually started falling together. It was a no-brainer— God was giving us the most invigorating opportunity. The thought of not going was nowhere even near to our hearts. We never thought that God would create a space in the middle of North Carolina for us to be. We are thankful and yet, still confused. We are learning, together, to live in the present, live freely, and live lightly, when our own expectations failed us yet again.
God is teaching my heart to release myself of unreachable expectations, to give Him my burdens because there is no space or time in this life to dwell on them. He is teaching me about his unforced rhythm of grace. He is teaching me a better way to do life and boy has it been life-giving. There is nothing more invigorating than to live lightly-- breaking down the boundaries, releasing yourself of unmet expectations, and placing your burdens at the foot of the cross.
My heart feels more free than it ever has before. I pray that God is teaching your heart to be present, to take a step back when you need to, and to treasure every single moment— even the not-so-pleasant ones.
You, sweet girl, were made to live lightly.